poetry · prose

Gyp

Thursday, January 10, 2019. Daily Brit Wit.

Gyp: 

Mass noun, British informal 

Pain or discomfort.

“Icy breaths steal my soul
freezing creative assets
and demolishing coherent thoughts
writer’s block transforms into icebergs
cruising unwaveringly
because collision is fated

everyone else has been gifted to write
yet mine has been stolen

she was the North Star
chaotic, blinding and brilliant
an unstoppable force of energy
I inherited
yet I never knew how to handle it
no instructions
only a discordant symphony
clamouring inside my head–
she left before I could ask:
how do I fix it, Mum?

My soul aches
dressed in black lace
mourning
even after all this time

but I can’t find the words
spilling forth
like a steady riverbank
moonbeam eyes
and starry soft lips
everything’s twisted
can’t seem to differentiate
north from south
right from left
ambition from disinterest…

if I jumped twenty hurtles,
then I’d get over myself,
right?

My athletic skills turn
liquid nightmares
into jasmine scented crimes
wrap the rope round my wrists
hold me down and make me feel
a l i v e
forget my anxious, traitorous heart
racing for control
it is all gone
because I’ve lost consciousness
swimming in Tchaikovsky’s orchestra
weeks and weeks ago
breathing is boring
and I just want my mind back
sanity please I beg of you

especially since
my body is limp, slack with forced sleep
my soul is blackening
day by day
giving me gyp
for destruction I only partially caused
imaginative demolition
reigning grey distortions
I used to be the majesty
and now I am only a witness
vanished
like the words in my head.”

 

© The Loyal Brit Wit, 2019

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27 thoughts on “Gyp

    1. A very special piece to me… it was… it wrote itself and at the same time it fought me tooth and nail. I think this one is gonna be one of the handful that I’ve written and shared on my blog here that’s gonna stay with me. Thank you for basking in my soul with me, my lovely friend. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

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      1. The irony is I definitely felt pain while writing this… it would come to me in pieces and then I’d pause for a ridiculous amount of time trying to come up with the right word. 🙄 haha but your compliment made it worth it!

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  1. It happens but we sail onward. This is a testament to the power of the poet to complete the journey of releasing those words, despite the icebergs. Excellent!

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      1. My pleasure. Your work really paid off and it’s good to challenge oneself to approach writing a little differently from time to time. It keeps us from becoming stagnant.

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      2. It really does. Well, I understand that and go through phases of stagnation from time to time. On those days I read and engage in commentary more then pull out some old poetry to post until I am ready to move out of the rut. Or I simply write lots of senryu because I can broaden the subject matter when my only expectation is to write seventeen syllables.

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      3. I took a break and tried a different approach to my usual posting schedule. It helped a bit. I also took a break from reading and commenting too much the first week to wind down from social media, and then the second week focused more of engaging in the community. I’ve been meaning to try my hand at senryu! I don’t think I’d have much luck at haiku but am always interested in condensing my poetry, especially since I’m so wordy!

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      4. We all have different coping mechanisms when it comes to dealing with writing issues, whether it’s a block or feeling stagnated. The benefit to taking breaks or doing something different is that it disrupts the routines. In most cases it works. I think you would write wonderful senryu. I prefer them to haiku simply because they are not as restrictive in subject matter. The senryu lets me deal with all kinds of human emotions and behaviours. I look forward to your attempt at senryu should you decide to write one. As for wordiness, we all have something to say and all require words to say it. Some of us want to make sure we miss something. Others, like, me, are too lazy to put the extra effort into it 🙂

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      5. Just my humble observation 🙂 I am sure it will. If it doesn’t I will bring a container of rocket fuel and you can bring a match. We’ll create a spark then 🙂

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